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Name: Jennifer
Country: United States
State: Ohio
Metro: Dayton
Birthday: 1/16/1985
Gender: Female


Interests: Music and art. God as well... through all the struggles, even when I run away from him... God is always there waiting to run to me as I return to him.
Expertise: If you need a smile.. or at least feel wanted.. hopefully I can do my best. If not... you can laugh at me being an idiot.
Occupation: Consulting
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Member Since: 11/16/2005

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Tuesday, October 16, 2007

I dreamed of you last night. You came up to me and my husband to be, you cried but had a smile on your face. You told me you were sorry... that you wish you could take back the pain you caused me. You said God freed you this time... and that you were serious about it. You shook my husbandto be's hand and told him he has a good one, and that you let me go and he should always hold on to me. Right then you called my mom and dad and apologized to them for all the pain you caused them. I dreamed you wrote me a check to pay me back all the pain you caused me in my financial life. I dreamed you became decent... and you did what God would have done.. then I woke up. I signed my papers to put on my report that I am not trustworthy with money so I can get the burden you created off my shoulders. I thought about how you were... and How you were not a Godly man, but definately a self-righteous one... thought about how you told me I didn't have substance... that I was a fake and never tried to achieve anything... I thought about how you had a date with another woman the same day I left... I thought about how you never smiled at me or cried with me... then I thought about how that dream would never be reality... because you're bad. You're mean. You're heartless.... I pitty the woman that ends up with you... but I doubt you'll ever have a real relationship. You will only take advantage of everyone you meet... and you will probably die alone... if you don't get shot first because you took advantage of the wrong person... My dream will never come true.. because you're too proud to let it.


Thursday, September 27, 2007

Wedding is around the corner!

Its been freakin forever since I have written in my xanga... I guess I felt like no one freakin read it anyway... so I ventured away.. plus on top of that, planning the wedding is taking up alot of my time. I have lost count with everything going on, but I have roughly 5 weeks til the wedding... its coming up very fast! So much to do!! But its ok.. everything will come together.. right? I hope so... getting nervous about how it will all work out... not really my relationship with tim.. but everything else...


Sunday, July 22, 2007

Figured its time to update here!

Its been over a month since I have posted anything on xanga... I had once promised to always stay with xanga.... but then it got to the point where no one readanything from here... and the heart longs to be known, right? But... for those who still honor the xanga code, I need to comply! lol

Less than 4 months til the wedding! More like 3 months and 2 weeks.. its crazy! Have alot of the planning done... most have the little things and have to make the programs and send out the invitations.

 

Tim and I have started searching for a place to live... we are thinking that to have any place decent, we'll need a roommate... if you're interested, let us know! We are really fair about spliting the rent! lol

 

I found out that since I applied for financial aid in march and checked the single box (I got nothing from the govt... i think they probably laughed when I sent it in) that I cannot claim my marriage until next march... meaning I can't go to school anymore because Tim and I cannot afford it. PLUS I do NOT want to start my marriage out by borrowing money from my parents... even if it is for school. My schooling isn't REALLY going to help me get a job... its basically just going to help meget tips for what I want to do... so.. very frustrating.

 

I miss having real friends that really cared.. (I have a handful that live far away)

 

 

So... at the beginning of this month I sang for Toby Mac... and his road manager. They really liked me! Its exciting! We'll see what God does with it... but it was an honor to play for Toby... its been my dream for so long...

 

 

Thats really it. Keep praying... still pretty sick. Afriad to go to the Doctor because I want to be on Tims insurance. If I have a sickness then they wont take me on... so... yeah. Keep prayin..dont want to like.. pass out on the weddingday or anything! lol

 

 

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Wednesday, June 06, 2007

No one pays attention anymore...

So yes.. I have gone to the dark side.. myspace blogs. No one reads mine on here anyway... nor does anyone bother to comment. My myspace is www.myspace.com/allthewiser If we arent friends yet, add me!! :D


Thursday, May 31, 2007

One year anniversary!!!

Tim and I are celebrating our one year anniversary tonight and tomorrow! June 1st is the official one year... it's so exciting! Tonight we're going to the revolving restaurant in cincinnati, and then tomorrow we're going to Kings Island. We were originally going to go to Cedar Point for a few days... however we came up short money wise... which kinda sucked. But thats ok! We're going to make the best of it all! One year... amaazing. Its been one awesome year too! Tim is amazing... I am so blessed to have him in my life... he's awesome.



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